A weird Prayer.

When you have a child with a serious illness, the prayers you offer up to G-d are slightly different than other people raising more typical kids.  The first time E took the SAT she was highly manic. SO manic, in fact, that I almost told her not to go at all because I wasn't sure she could sit still and concentrate. Indeed, she was hospitalized two days later not making sense and not completely in touch with reality,not sleeping, flying high as a kite, thoughts racing and speaking a mile a minute. Needless to say, her score could have been a little better.

So, tomorrow is the re-take. She is slightly manic. A nice, wonderful case of hypomania. So here I am praying to G-d that hypomania lasts until Sunday when the SAT is over. That she stays in this state of feeling confident and happy and in a good mood. We don't want her too manic or we have a repeat of the previous sitting. We don't want her depressed so she doesn't care. We don't want her in mixed state so she's angry and upset and hostile. "G-d, let hypomnia last for at least one more day."  My prayers have become somewhat unusual. The one prayer I want to pray cannot be answered- "Make this all go away," so for now I'll settle for hypomania.